Living in Isolation

I have never felt so alone again. I currently live by myself in a three bedroom home. I rent a room. 2 months since I decided to quit my day job, and being self employed limits the usual socialization that a person has. I move by myself, and for myself.

I have goals and a vision that only I can see. Honestly, it’s tough. The quietness becomes noisy, but I also choose to keep myself away from distraction or conversations that don’t benefit my future,

My partner too is not around. My boyfriend. The one who understood me at one point, couldn't. My family in Texas understands that I thrive when I go unbothered by doubts towards my goals, and so they never question my moves anymore.

It truly sinks in that this is what we can sometimes get for our persistency, discipline and drive. When the right people come, they stay. However, we will never force ourselves upon anything that can hinder us from achieving those ideals bigger than ourselves. Suckishly, no one will understand it till you earn billions of dollars. But to get there, I ask myself. How do I numb my heart from temporarily living in isolation?