Family

to feel like they are part of your life again. I’ll be honest, I did distance myself from people who don’t understand my vision, who always had something to say, and who doubt it. A lot of those three came from my family at the beginning of this career. I only saw their questions, with the unspoken idea if it will monetize or give me a sustainable income in the future. At this age, I understood it. But before, it became a fuel of “watch me, it will get done”. All doubts were directed to proving myself.

It gets tiring, you know. To be fueled by anger.

This all stopped the moment they finally saw and realized that I’m not stopping and this is a serious dream. They’re particularly my grandparents’ approach was “what do we have, to help get it started now”. In that sense, it feels as if it brought my heart closer to home again. Why I do what I do. Who else can I learn all these from, but from those who doubted & inspires me at the same time. Odd as I may type it out, time is the only factor I cannot control, and that I have to maximize while Nanay and Tatay can move and think with me. Truly, I know nothing. But if Tatay wants to just do it, the urge to work on the dream should already be there. Going back to family, to move cautiously is great to keep in mind, but to also feel the sense of camaraderie makes it easier to move forward.

Family is trouble, family will teach me how to set boundaries, and family will teach me how to trust.